Tuesday, August 21, 2007

trust issues

so i've been reading through two books as of late; "the peacemaker" by ken sande and "when people are big and God is small" by edward t welch. God has used both of them to remind me of an area He's been growing me in lately; trust.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 cor 13:4-7

I've come to realize and be convicted that I don't "always trust," and the impact it has on my relationship with others as well as my God and King. When I don't trust others as His mandate, I'm actually not trusting Him. To always trust others, is trust Him totally and completely. Coming to this understanding is heart-breaking, do I really not trust Him entirely, and with everything...

Father, heal my broken heart that fails to trust you completely. Route out the deep dark places and expose them in your light of truth. May you teach me to trust you in everything, to lay all my worries at your feet.

The hardest part of these revelations is the practical implications in my day to day life. I'm struggling through what it looks like to "always trust."

He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God.
micah 6:8 (niv)